understanding is not everything... it truly isn't. on so many levels in so many aspects ugh.
we just finished taking a batch of pes e recruits this week. virgin experience of being a commander. 1 week is hardly anything but surprisingly, it was quite an eye-opener. most importantly, i realized how difficult it is to realize my vision of not having to use fear as a source of motivation.
barrier #1: actually controlling my own anger. but this with enough practice sure can one.
barrier #2: recruits will climb over me. this time 1 week only so it didn't happen but can sense the glimmers of precursors.
bigbarrier: peer pressure. faintZ the culture (of being harsh) is completely oppressing. stifling. just a few days of taking pes e (yes and they're pes e moreover) and got other commanders come tell me that i need to talk to them in a harsher manner. use orders instead of requests.
bahhhhh. altho bigbarrier is an issue, i think #2 is the one that i truly need to reflect upon. how to balance between the stick and the carrot... ok la 'stick and carrot' is such a... primitive analogy. assuming that the animal in us is overwhelming. rather, how to balance between control of reason and control of instinct.
tsk tsk. need to feel the waves~ it may not be walking a tightrope but even then there's skill needed... u just plunge right in without attempting to float, u drown like a log. la mer~ and then the ocean glowZ
Name: Foo Guo Zhong Melvyn
Age: 19+
Affiliations: MSHS (Pri), Rosyth, RI, RJC, SFX (LoG)
Bday: 14th Nov
Email: mel_protoss@hotmail.com
understanding is not everything... it truly isn't. on so many levels in so many aspects ugh.
we just finished taking a batch of pes e recruits this week. virgin experience of being a commander. 1 week is hardly anything but surprisingly, it was quite an eye-opener. most importantly, i realized how difficult it is to realize my vision of not having to use fear as a source of motivation.
barrier #1: actually controlling my own anger. but this with enough practice sure can one.
barrier #2: recruits will climb over me. this time 1 week only so it didn't happen but can sense the glimmers of precursors.
bigbarrier: peer pressure. faintZ the culture (of being harsh) is completely oppressing. stifling. just a few days of taking pes e (yes and they're pes e moreover) and got other commanders come tell me that i need to talk to them in a harsher manner. use orders instead of requests.
bahhhhh. altho bigbarrier is an issue, i think #2 is the one that i truly need to reflect upon. how to balance between the stick and the carrot... ok la 'stick and carrot' is such a... primitive analogy. assuming that the animal in us is overwhelming. rather, how to balance between control of reason and control of instinct.
tsk tsk. need to feel the waves~ it may not be walking a tightrope but even then there's skill needed... u just plunge right in without attempting to float, u drown like a log. la mer~ and then the ocean glowZ